Posting FAIL

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Since the other two are slackers, I'll post again. :P

In talking to Katie over IM this evening, we've both learned some important things. We might have actually learned these progressively over the last week, but we actually talked about it tonight. Since we're basing the three main characters off ourselves, this gives way to some deep, deep exploration. This kind of exploration feels...weird, for lack of a better word. As Katie pointed out to me, it's almost like we're judging ourselves...we don't want to share the weaknesses too, but that's what's going to translate well into the characters we're creating for this show.

For me, though? This kind of exploration is almost painful...but not a bad painful. If that makes any sense at all. It almost makes me feel sad...not depressed, but just a little sad. There are feelings I've unearthed that I think I've been keeping down. Particularly the feelings linked to my fear of graduation. The hardest of these feelings, for me, is the feeling of failure. That's what I think I'm most scared of with graduation. I'm scared I'm not going to succeed. And that's a hard fear to face and a hard emotion to overcome. I can deal with being scared of graduation itself--it's a one-day event and then it's over and done with. I can't deal as easily with that fear of failure.

But in discovering these deeper emotions and fears and things that are making me tick that I didn't even realize much before...I've discovered a deeper level to the character of Aimee. She has now, finally, been set apart more from the other two. They're no longer just three girls who could be interchangeable. Digging into these emotions, as weird or painful or whatever that may be, that's what's setting these characters apart. And that's a big leap for us to make at this point.